Time with the Children

I spent more quality time with my 3 children. The children love me now more than ever, and how I love them so. I took them to places they've never been before. We went on out-of-town trips. We never experienced that when he was still with us for he always made promises to take us out but never did.

I scheduled dates with the children twice a week. We have dinners at their favorite restaurants, we go to parks, some movies, to the malls, or simply just hang-out at home and that's what they call our "special nights" together. In turn, they would always say, "Thank you Mommy", sweetly, lovingly and with hugs to match. I can never compare that feeling with anything else.

These children mean everything to me. I gave up my full-time job to be with them, to guide them, to be available for them. It's just me and the kids now... and life is peaceful and full of love. Of course they sometimes fight and I act as their referee. That's part of it. They are still very young. My eldest son is now 9, my daughter is 6 and my other son is 3. Still, our home is filled with love for one another.

Single motherhood is an adventure. A woman's strength is always tested.

I teach my children values but they always teach me something back in return. They taught me how to be strong and to love, no matter what. My eldest son told me one day, "Mommy, whatever Daddy is doing... let's just love him anyway." I know that it was really meant for me. They still love and respect their father although they don't want to live with him. Besides, I never told them not to love him. I always tell them that he still is their father.

As for me, I am enjoying every minute that I spend with my children. I am a single mom. For all the single moms out there, "Cheers to us". Let's make this a better world for our children.

House Cleaning

I did some house-cleaning. It really is very therapeutic. Seeing clutter also makes one feel more stressed. Reducing clutter and putting things in their proper places not only clears some spaces but also clears the mind.

I segregated all his belongings. He left me with a lot of them. Up to this time, I still don't know if I should throw them away or not. Included are books, reference materials, about 3 shirts, seminar manuals and other stuff. I just decided on having all of them in one box and kept away from my sight for he might still need those. Am I being very considerate? Besides, I don't actually know where to send them for I don't know where he lives now.

I also kept wedding photo frames, albums and other family pictures out of my sight. Well, of course I had to pull them down from the walls. I just kept my children's photos on display. I had to keep all reminders of him away from me. After all, it's just me and the kids now.

About my wedding ring, well, I sold it. He lost his a few days after our wedding anyway. Isn't that a clear sign that the marriage is not going to last?