For a long time, I wanted to free myself up from this emotional prison of hate, depression and loneliness. I have read tons of books on moving on. But no matter how many books you read, you cannot never achieve the feeling of complete freedom unless you learn to how to forgive.
It took a long while for me to forgive. How can I if the person is not even repentant? It wasn't easy. Everyday, I would ask Inner Self if I have already forgiven him. My Inner Self wouldn't lie of course but would encourage me to try again and again everyday, knowing that it is my only ticket to complete emotional freedom.
After one and a half years, he became friendly. I never ever thought that we could be friends again. Although I must admit that I prayed hard for this. One time, while he was visiting the children and we were left alone, I felt the compulsion to tell him that I have already forgiven him. It just dawned on me. I completely let go and yes, I felt that I really have forgiven him.
I guess there is a big difference when forgiveness is verbalized. It made a difference on me and it made a difference on him as well. I can say that we were both liberated.
Forgiveness leads to emotional freedom. It is an exhilarating feeling.
Muster the courage to forgive and verbalize it straight to their face without any expectations, only to relieve yourself of the emotional rut.
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